Okay~ I felt so lead to write something in my blog. Well, firstly, just want to talk about what have happened over the past few days. From friday till today, I have been attending my granny's wake at Ang Mo Kio. It was a sad time for my entire family. Relatives and cousins are all there. It is through the death of someone in the family that things sometimes will crop up. For me, my late granny, Low Ah Loi, passed away, things starts to resurface into my life. Things which I should have done all along.

Firstly, it is the way of life. Every single person only have this period of time to live. And sometimes life is short. So I should really spend my time wisely. Make 100% use of the time I have while I am still alive. While people are wasting their time over other things in the world, I rather use my time to glorify God and to help others. What better joy is there to see someone's life being changed. Even it is just 1 person but 1 person's life change is better than 1000 life that stays the same.

The other thing which I find that I really need to do is that I need to spend more time with my extended family. For example, my grandparents. I don't want to lose my grandparents without really knowing them. Regretting it at the very last moment and living with that regret for the rest of my life? nope. I will never do that~

Yawn..

I should find an earlier time to blog next time. This time is just too damn tiring to blog..

Another day then~

love,
Ryan =D

I think he is not using his mind and think. Think!! Just a simple thing to do. Call me lazy? Say that I am a lazy person. What crap is he talking about when he say that I am not lazy when I am doing the things I want to do? Like duh! Everyone won't be lazy to want to do the things they want to do. In fact, I am no longer considered lazy because I am at least doing something. Not lazing around at home watching time flies.

Haiz.. I guess you will never know what I am doing. Can't really blame him. Not as understanding as my mom.

Someone please define Lazy!

1. averse or disinclined to work, activity, or exertion; indolent
2. causing idleness or indolence
3. slow-moving

Am I? Firstly, I go out and do stuff. Serve in Ministry. Make new friends. AND MIND YOU I DO STUDY IN SCHOOL! What crap is he talking about when he say Im lazy. When you say Im lazy, I wonder if he still knows me or not! Come on! Telling him I am going out late at night and he just tell me not to go around drinking and stuff.

COME ON MAN!! Christian yo Christian! The most basic of Christians is that they don't go around Drinking man!!! Haiz.. HAIZ...

HAPPY FATHERS DAY DAD!! HUMP!

2nd day of camp. 9.05am in the morning. Prayer meeting is canceled for the sole reason that everyone is still asleep. Things are going slowly. At the Alfresco sitting down, took deep breath of fresh air as it breezed by..

Hello! Just another mindless wondering of my mind as I do nothing on my computer. Zhi Yi just left me at the Alfresco. And I am all alone here typing away at my own computer blogging away.. Seriously, I am just blogging nuts. Blogging with no intention of blogging in mind. Just crapping in my blog. Yeap.

Oh ya. I can talk about camp the first day. It was no doupt fantastic. Reached at 11.00am to help out for the Administration side of the Camp. But all I did was to stone at the Cafe, walking around and simply doing nothing. Than its time for amazing race. Amazing Race was exciting. We travelled all around Singapore getting clues from different people. Okay, maybe not all but main places are Paya Lebar and City Hall. People to get our clues from are Guo Wei, Alvin Low, Ang Lek Fong and some other people whom I cannot remember their names. Yeah.

Image this that we only took the MRT to City Hall and we travelled all the way to Bugis, to the Padang and took and MRT from Bugis to church. All walking and no other means of transport. Its siong but fun.. Lol.

Also want to talk about this boy Kenneth. Quite a cool boy. Thinking of getting to know him more. Maybe not someone my CG is EVing but why not help out. We are still a body of Christ right? Amen!

Love,
Ryan

I am a guy of my word for this! No one will finally know what I write on my blog already. This is because I HAVE REMOVED THE LAST LINK TO HERE! My MSN!! Hahaha.. Now only close friends and very close friends will know. Those that have linked me to their blog! Hahaha..

I think examinations are not that bad after all. Once you know how examinations are like, you will not feel like how I felt just now. Like how the entire world is above you. Telling yourself that your life is rotten. What you chose for your future job is a whole book of worthless engineering formulas. Thats how I feel.

Its a complicated feeling. If you are me and you entered Engineering as your course, and knowing that all your friends who are in different course who have graduated like in arts, having a grand graduation and showcasing their final work. You start to realize, what will I get once I graduated? If I have a graduation showcase, what will be in my showcase? F=ma? Formulas? Thats like crap man..

The thought of it just pulls me down. Big time. I want a good graduation. I don't want some normal graduation. For every part of your life, you cannot get it back. Once it is gone, its gone. And when you finish one phrase of your life, you will follow that path whether you like it or not. A Diploma in Mechatronic Engineering is surely gonna make me an engineer working for other people. Not me. Totally not me.

I am going to break the chain of evens coming up in the future.. I am going to look back at this blog post and tell myself that what I am reading now is true. That when I study Engineering, I won't be an Engineer in the future! I am going to be an Entrepreneur! WAIT AND SEE!

I think I should start blogging again. Like I said before. No point making a blog in the first place if I don't have the intention to continue blogging. Maybe now that there will be lesser or no readers who reads my blog, I think just writing with the knowledge that no one is reading will really help me express myself more in my blog. Im sure what I say is true.

Currently in the examination season and examinations is a phrase of my life where things will stur up in my mind. What a complicated thing the mind is. For me myself, I think that I am a very thinking person. Every single time I am alone and have nothing to do, my mind will just start thinking of things. Things concerning myself. Ministry, family, friends and school. The worst thing that can happen is that something will just crop up in my mind. And when that happen, it will be placed in my mind and the next time I have nothing to do, I will start to thing about it. If my thoughts ends up well, it will have positive results. I will be encouraged. But when it ends up badly, I think I will be emo. The mind is a very tricky thing.

Sometimes the reason why I thought of doing so many thing and actually fill myself with work is so that I will be occupied and not think of things. Call me a workaholic but I think I am not. Its just that I just want to stop thinking of such things. Should I do just that? Alot of people did say before that I am a person who thinks alot. I totally agree with them. There are more things that goes through my mind than I can actually do it physically. Some things I thought of is creative stuff and it will come to pass in due time. But the underlying thing is that I think that my mind is my strength and also my weakness. Something which can build me and bring me up a whole new level. It is also something which can pull me down and break me.

The mind is a complicated thing. My life, is complicated. I call this my lifes complication..

I just want to revive my blog for once. No point having a blog when I dont blog right? Hmm.. Anyone felt a little different today? I think it is the humility, the weather, everything! I feel tired. Chui and ever more chui than before. I am having the feverish feeling now. Should be the weather. It must be the weather. Urgh.. Not a time to be sick man..

Anyway, Red Rain just passed and I know it have been a great weekend! The Concert Rocked the roof of Heart of God Church! Its exciting!!

Finally blogging again. Where am I now? I am at Ngee Ann Polytechnic's Library Level 3. A little time I can use to blog. What am I going to blog about this time.. Hmmm..

I know! I shall blog about the idoiticracy of today's lesson. I have had enough! I wonder what I am going to do for the rest of the semester! For odd weeks of school, I have class on tuesday from 12.00pm to 1.00pm followed by a lesson from 3.00pm-5.00pm. But for even weeks, I only have the first lessons which is from 12.00pm to 1.00pm. So considering my traveling time is 1 hour and 20 mins to travel to school. 3 hours of traveling time just for a 1 hour lesson. 1 hour! JUST 1 hour!! Oh man..

Luckly I have something to do later which is a make up lesson in school. If not I would already have skipped the lesson. I am also planning to donate blood later at 4.00pm. Block 16. Anyone care to donate blood with me today? Hahaha. Blood blood blood!! Exciting! Sounds very sadistic. ANYWAY! Hahaha..

Thinking of donating blood at 4.00pm and I just think it will be until 5.00pm. 5.00pm till 6.00pm will be my slack, rest and relax time. And at 6.00pm to 7.30pm will be my Make Up Lesson. Than after that, I am going to go home and do my homework.

Talking about Homework.. I have this very bad habit which is to always have the thought of doing my homework but once it comes to the time for me to do my homework, I will be distracted and in the end, not be doing my homework. Talking about consistancy, I think I am not a very consistent person when it comes to homework! Haha.. Opps! :)